Life has been absolutely hectic. School, School, School and more School. Even though everyone around here thinks that I do not do anything. Sorry Guys but I just need to vent right now. You know what guys I do not even care if anyone reads this. Oh well! Question if anyone knows the answer please tell me. I am so tired with everything life in general. All the heart problems I have been having and all the lack of support from people that are supposed to love me. I obviously know my marriage is going no where. It is more of a connivance thing. He does not Love me nor do I think the same of my feelings towards him. The problem is I am stuck between a rock and a hard place. I leave him maybe I am happy but financially I am in ruins(well that is if I am already not). I mean do not get my wrong I would never do anything. I love my son way to much and he means the absolute world to me. What do I do? Anyone have any suggestions because I am lost? I already know that his family hates me. Its obvious even though he had plenty of excuses on why they do. Which by all means is fine by me. Believe what they want or whatever he wants.
I just don't know what to do? Its so hard and it seems like my dream of being a nurse is so far away and so expensive. Should I just forget it all and go get a real job. Like Anthony and his mother say.What about him getting a real job. Part of me thinks that all of these newly discovered heart problems were there, they just did not come up because I was more calm.(I don't know if that is the right thing)
All of the DR.'s say that it is just a defect and can easily be fixed. But when I am going to get some support. Does Anthony really think that I want to go to the hospital every 10 days and go through only God knows how many tests to be told all of these scary answers I do not even want to tell my parents about. For some reason he seems to think so! I know you all probably did not want to hear me vent but I am sorry I needed to get some of this out even if no one reads it or no one cares.
On two good notes here is a picture of Aiden at Disneyland with my new camera. My parents helped me to buy a didigital SLR Camera and I am totally in love with it and taking pictures of aiden. I have had it a month and have over 800 pictures of him.
Love to you all, Melissa
