Almost a month

So it has been almost a month since my heart surgery. It seems as if things get better for a little while then they start back up again. My rhythm is definatly better. It is in normal range which I am thankful for, but oh my if I relized I would have had chest pain like I have had for the past month. I would have definatly thought the surgery over more carefully and maybe not even gone though with it. When I said this to the cardiologist today he said it should get better, I should give it approxamatly 8 weeks. So that means another 4 to go. I am just so sick of going to the hospital and people thinking "it is in my head. " Damn it, it is not. The pain is there are at some points it is quite intense. I think the paramedics have been here about 4 or 5 times since I had the surgery, but that is what the cardiologist says to do. He says the heart is no matter to mess around with and it is better to be safe than sorry, which I understand but when you are looked upon at the ER like you are some fool it is so hard to go. Anyway I just had to vent. I really promise I will be on here more often and post more pictures of Aiden. Just recently have not felt like doing that much and when I do it is stuff that has to be done!!!!

Tomorrow is the Big Day

Tomorrow is the big day. We have to be at Good Samaratin in Los Angeles at 7 am. If all goes well I should be home in a few days. Anthony should have my cell phone for those who want to call. Also you can call Good Samaratin once I am in my room which they are saying the surgery will be anywhere from 5 to 8 hours. 

Aiden Shaving!!!

Aiden shaving in the bath! Boy he is growing up so fast!

I know It has been a While!!!!

Not much going on around here. Just really busy with school. Tons and Tons of homework and studying, but in the long run it will be worth it for Aiden and I he will have a wonderful life to look forward to. I just wish school would go faster. I want to be done, I want to support my son 100% not just financially but also emotionally. I also really want to work so hard for my parents. They have given me so much in my life that I really did not think about or truly appreciate until recently. I want so bad to give them a nice worry free retirement. Isn't that what they deserve, while at least I think so they have given me so much. I can not believe that I am 23 and now just really starting to see it. I owe my parents everything I could not ever give them back what they have given me. The knowledge and most of all the strength and courage to succeed. I love them truly.
I really am hoping to blog more and take some more picture of Aiden and other's to have them posted on here. It just seems as if there is not enough hours in the day. I have classes Tuesdays and Thursdays for 12 hours a day. But it will all pay off in the end.
As for the heart condition, surgery is scheduled for Friday April 3, they are bringing in a surgeon from Florida to assist in the procedure since he is the expert in the heart condition I have Atrial Fibrillation along with a SA Node problem.I am ready for it and I see it as what is meant to be is meant to be. I am just so tired of the medication making me think like a foggy headed zombie...
For some reason I can not get my camera to upload any new pictures. I am working on it I promise. I will try to get them up latter tonight or tomorrow. I promise.
Love to All....

Nonna, Aiden, and Minnie Mouse Last weekend at Disneyland

Sorry For Yet Another Long Delay

We have been very busy here. They tried to modify my heart again. So we were in LA Tuesday to Wednesday. They burnt at the heart for 5 hours and still no luck. They now believe the arrhythmia is coming from a different part of the heart. So I am going to opt to have that surgery done there again during my spring break.
I know I need to start posting some more so I will I promise. Especially more pistures of Aiden and how he is doing.
My School starts back next Tuesday the 17th. So I will be fairly busy but I will keep up on the updates, Most definatly I want to get the most use out of this beautiful camarea I got.
Looking forward to hearing your comments, Next Time a pic of Aiden
Melissa

Sorry For the Even Longer Delaly

Life has been absolutely hectic. School, School, School and more School. Even though everyone around here thinks that I do not do anything. Sorry Guys but I just need to vent right now. You know what guys I do not even care if anyone reads this. Oh well! Question if anyone knows the answer please tell me. I am so tired with everything life in general. All the heart problems I have been having and all the lack of support from people that are supposed to love me. I obviously know my marriage is going no where. It is more of a connivance thing. He does not Love me nor do I think the same of my feelings towards him. The problem is I am stuck between a rock and a hard place. I leave him maybe I am happy but financially I am in ruins(well that is if I am already not). I mean do not get my wrong I would never do anything. I love my son way to much and he means the absolute world to me. What do I do? Anyone have any suggestions because I am lost? I already know that his family hates me. Its obvious even though he had plenty of excuses on why they do. Which by all means is fine by me. Believe what they want or whatever he wants.

I just don't know what to do? Its so hard and it seems like my dream of being a nurse is so far away and so expensive. Should I just forget it all and go get a real job. Like Anthony and his mother say.What about him getting a real job. Part of me thinks that all of these newly discovered heart problems were there, they just did not come up because I was more calm.(I don't know if that is the right thing)

All of the DR.'s say that it is just a defect and can easily be fixed. But when I am going to get some support. Does Anthony really think that I want to go to the hospital every 10 days and go through only God knows how many tests to be told all of these scary answers I do not even want to tell my parents about. For some reason he seems to think so! I know you all probably did not want to hear me vent but I am sorry I needed to get some of this out even if no one reads it or no one cares.

On two good notes here is a picture of Aiden at Disneyland with my new camera. My parents helped me to buy a didigital SLR Camera and I am totally in love with it and taking pictures of aiden. I have had it a month and have over 800 pictures of him.

Love to you all, Melissa